Yes, I know it's been forever since I've written.  It's weird...I feel like a different person since my last posts.  I think the last time I wrote I was still in Europe...

Anyway...I've been having some disturbing dreams.  To catch everyone up, I moved back to my hometown, bought a house with my boyfriend, and then a year later (about 3 months ago), we broke up.  Blah blah drama drama...but these dreams are driving me nuts.  They started a few weeks ago...maybe a month ago.  The first one I dreamt I was camping in a tent in the wilderness and went to pee (without my glasses, which, at night, is as close to blind as one comes), and as I parted the tent, I came to solid glass.  I woke up pounding on the windows over my bed (covered by curtains very similar to a tent opening).  For probably a solid minute (which seemed much longer during the time), I had no idea where I was and couldn't see anything.  

Another dream: I dreamt someone stole a subway car with me and several other passengers on it and kept driving back and forth underground, keeping us hostage and not letting us out.  Oh, and my glasses were knocked off so I could barely see.  And no one seemed to notice we were hostages.  

Then last night I dreamt I was trapped underground with my mom and we were trying to make our way out of a maze...with the eerie feeling that something was stalking us.  At least I had my glasses on.  But my mom was counting on me to get us out of there and I just couldn't do it...but I had to act calm for her sake.  And she didn't know about the thing stalking us.  

I get it...I feel trapped...but that's about as far as I got.  And how do I change that? 

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